Thursday, June 9, 2011


I have decided I have to quit watching horror movies. Last night I had a dream about a werewolf. Of course, if I stop watching horror movies I won't watch any movies at all. I am the worlds biggest horror movie fan. I am a big fan of vampire movies especially. I have been a fan since I watched my first vampire movie with Bela Lugosi.

I know this sounds strange but I hate comedies. Well Pirates of the Caribbean movies are pretty good. But, for the most part I do not like comedies especially romantic comedies. I also hate romance movies. I know I am not a normal girl. I like action movies where things get blown up or there is a lot of shooting. Guess I have an underlying violent streak. Okay, maybe not so underlying. LOL

Body of Lies was one of my favorite movies. I love Ghostbusters but that is for a very specific reason. My son when he was little made me play that movie over and over again. He would run around the house yelling Gobuthters. LOL He had every Ghostbusters toy on the market. So of course I think of him when I see that movie.

I love big animal eats people movies too. My mother and I used to spend weekends watching those kind of movies. I love the movie Beast by Peter Benchley. That movie was awesome. I love blood and guts. So strange for a woman. Huh? I also know a lot about cars and am an excellent plumber and lawn mower repair person. To look at me I look like a girlie girl though, and I hate girlie girls. Go figure.

My favorite TV shows are Vampire Diaries, Supernatural, and Ghost Hunters. What a surprise. This fall following Vampire Diaries is a new show about witches. Will have to watch that one too. I watched Teen Wolf on MTV last week, not a bad show, it looks like it might get more interesting as the season progresses. Oh and don't forget the Twilight movies they are great an so are the books. As a surprise to you horror books are what I read most except for James Patterson, and he writes action thrillers. No love stories there. I like the Alex Cross novels.

Time to get on with my day. I don't have all  that much more to pack. Thank God. Guess I'll go and be almost finished except for the stuff I use almost everyday. Have a great day and blessed be.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Random Thoughts

Well I only have a small amount of packing left to do. I can't say I am really doing it quickly. I have this damn infection and it hurts like hell. I am having a hard time moving my ass. I am, however, blowing out my eardrums. I have to go to WalMart. Maybe I could take my own people of WalMart picture.

I am listening to Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Right now. It's only good when it's really loud. Of course I have a real thing for Godsmack and Sully Erna. Damien  Cripps Band is on now. You should look them up they are really good, they are from Australia. I have such a mixed collection on ITunes I have a little of everything from classical to rock and everything in between.

Did anyone watch the MTV movie awards the other night. I love the kiss that Rob planted on Taylor I laughed my ass off. Ohh My Chemical Romance good shit. I though Kristen looked like she hadn't brushed her hair in a week though. I like Nina Dobrev better anyway. I am a huge Vampire Diaries fan. Oh don't go hating on the age thing. I refuse to grow up. I don't want to and I don't have  to. I just have to age. Remember you have to grow older but you can stay immature forever. LOL.

I am now listening to Father of Mine, Everclear, reminds me of my father (bastard) Wish he would read my blog I have so much hate and anger towards him I don't think I will get over it until I am sure he is dead. I will of course send a dozen black roses to his funeral. Black roses for a black hearted bastard.

Oh have to go watch my soap The Young and the Restless. My neighbor got me into watching it. LOL It's all her fault. Peace out.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Boxes Boxes Everywhere

I guess I should get my butt off this chair and start packing. I am aiming for packing up my bathroom stuff. I have a huge cabinet under my sinks and it is loaded with soaps and lotions, etc. As graceful as I am, I dropped my electric rollers and the clips to hold them in are all over the bottom of the cabinet. When God gave out grace I thought he said face and I told him I already had one.

It is suppose to be another hot one today. Think I will make sure I stay in the house. I picked up what I needed from the grocery store last night. My neighbor took me out to dinner, we went to Sonny's BBQ. It was great as usual. Then we went to WalMart. I picked up dog food because I knew if I ran out of food I would be missing an appendage when I woke up. As we know I don't run the house I am just allowed to be a servant here. Sterling is laying by my feet right now almost like a dog. That is a miracle in itself.

Tiki is sleeping on the back of the couch. He thinks he's a cat and my cat thinks she's a dog. My house is all messed up. The cat comes when called and speaks when you tell her to. LOL My dogs take a message and get back to me. If they had opposible thumbs I think they might throw me out. But I think they enjoy having me as a pet.

Will keep you updated on my progress throughout the day hopefully I will get somewhere today. Boxes boxes everywhere and not a bit of room to move.

Monday, May 30, 2011

What a busy week ahead

Wow, I had a great Sunday. I went over an old friends house and we went to a Greek restaurant for dinner. I love Greek food. We had a great time just talking and doing what old friends do. After I move I sure am going to miss her.I am hoping to be able to meet a friend of mine, Maryann (more like a second mom)  for dinner next Saturday and Sunday meet Carmen for lunch. On Friday I am meeting another friend of mine, Janet, for lunch. Yes a busy week. I mat even be able to meet Michele for dinner this week. I need to see my friends before I leave God's waiting room. I also hope to see Jade and baby Audry before I go. Jade is my best friend.

The sun is shining today and of course it's going to be another hot steamy day. Of course I am moving to Virginia in a couple of weeks and their weather is mirroring ours here in Florida. I hate hot weather. I seldom leave the house when it's hot out. I swell really bad in the heat which makes my Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA)feel even worse. I also found out I have osteoarthritis between my should blades. Boy is that painful. I can't help but to dwell on the pain because all of this packing is really getting to me. I spend half my time stoned with Oxycontin.

I am going to my last infusion on the 16th of June. I don't know when I will be able to get another one and I'll be damned but I think it was finally starting to work. I know my hips and my shoulders are starting to feel better. The Orencia isn't helping the Psoriasis but that's okay. I was more worried about the pain then my elbows and ankles. The Remicade worked better but I can't take that because of the possibility of my having Multiple sclerosis. My health really sucks. I was afraid of dying down here in Florida without my family being around me, at least up in Virginia I'll have family around me when I get old. I just realized I forgot to take my Methotrexate injection yesterday, I have to remember to do it today.

I will be right by my daughter Kelly and my granddaughter Bri'onna and the new little one coming soon. I held my best friends baby a couple of weeks ago, I found it very hard because of the osteoarthritis to hold the baby. I hope this doesn't happen with the little one. Bri'onna is four no need to pick her up anymore. Bri'onna is so smart she knows how to dial my phone number and leave a message on my voice mail. Gotta love these little these days, they are so smart.

I feel like this week is going to be very busy which means I have to get my ass moving packing. I get so tired packing then I have to take a pain pill then lay down early for the night. Which is okay I have no where to go today anyway. I need a new battery and an oil change but I am not sure if WalMart is even open today so I will wait until tomorrow. Have to get the car ready for the trip up to Virginia.

Guess I will sign off for now and go start packing something anyway, maybe under my bathroom sink. That will be half a days job all in itself. I have a huge sink area in my master bedroom bathroom. Have a blessed day my friends.

Saturday, May 28, 2011


I was locked out of my own blog for days. I am finally back on. Well my closing date for my condo should be on June 2nd. I am so excited. I should be moving on the 15th. My house isn't all packed, not yet anyway. I am at a loss now. I am running out of room for the packed boxes and I am not sure what to pack next. I am not very organized that was always left to my mom. Wish she were here to help.

I am really tired too. My Rheumatoid Arthritis isn't so bad but the osteoarthritis in my back is killing me. Unpacking is going to be just as hard. Let me tell you about a dream I had the other night. I was moved into my new place and I took my dogs for a walk. I then couldn't find my way back to my own place, I was lost and wondering around. I was so frustrated it finally woke me up. It was actually kind of funny because I could see myself doing something like that.

My daughter is really excited about me moving close to her. I think my son may even be excited because I will be only 6 hours away from him. He could drive that. I'm thrilled I will be there for my second grandchild. Bri'onna, my granddaughter says she wants a sister, but if it's a boy that's okay but she won't like him. amazing what a four year old can say. LOL.

Now if only I could get my disability. I don't know what I will do for money when I get there. But that is okay, the God/Goddess will watch over me. I have faith they will take care of me until I can get back on my feet. Hopefully, that will happen soon. I am trying so hard not to get depressed. I know I should be excited and anticipating the move but I am kind of anxious too. I never have been one to handle change easily. But I can do this I'm sure of it. I will finish packing and have everything ready by the 15th. Well except for the nap I would like to go take right now. I hurt my back trying to move a damn box.

Guess I have to go now and do some more packing. I sit here and stare and just don't know what to do next but I am sure I will figure it out. Have a blessed day.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

So I missed a couple of day. Shoot me.

I went to go see "Insidious" last night good thing theatre was empty. My friend and I jumped through the entire movie. I loved it. There is nothing better then a good old fashioned horror movie that is just that horror. No one died in this movie and no slashing and gashing. It was pure haunted house stuff. Definitely recommended.

 My friend Michele was hysterical. At one point I jumped at her and said boo, I thought she was going out the emergency exit. It was great. She is lots of fun to go to horror movies with. She's the only one who will go to horror movies with me. LOL

My daughter got good news on her test. She is 9 weeks pregnant and was taking Paxil when she got pregnant. So they had to test the baby for down syndrome and some other test for deformity. But all looks good right now. Her next appointment will be able to tell if it's a boy or a girl. I say boy because it is so active. Sounds like a line backer to me.

So I finished the first "Twilight book" it was much better than the movie. I have now started #2. By the way I already read Breaking Dawn so I am a little backwards. I can't wait for the next movie to come out. Yes I am a grown up nerd. Some kids never grow up. However, I do know a lot of adults my age who really liked the books and movies. So I am not alone. There is even a website called Moms for Twilight for us older fans. Of course 47 is not really old. I could be a lot older.

Another show that is totally awesome is "Vampire Diaries" on the CW. I am a big Damon fan. He is one of the vampire brothers. The bad boy type. Yes I am a big Vampire fan, I have been since Bela Lugosi when I was a kid. I just became obsessed with vampires. It's kind of funny I was always playing vampire and hunter instead of cops and robbers. LOL I know that is going to get some comments.

Well time to go to Dunkin Donuts for some coffee. Blessed be.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Let's get this straight

Last time I bought crickets for Billie Joe I had to buy large crickets. The difference between large and small is that the large ones are full grown and make their little crickets chirps. The small ones are really quiet, no noise at all. My damn living sounded like a rain forest with the large ones. They were driving me crazy and that is a very short drive for me.

Well there were a couple of large ones in this batch of small ones I bought this time and now I still am listening to the crickets. I wonder if anyone has ever dug their ears out from the noise? Speaking of digging ears out, I was down in the Keys by my aunt and I accidentally saw her neighbor getting out of his shower, I swore to God my eyes were going to be burned out, or at least wished they would be.

Today Sterling goes to get a bath. Boy does she need it. I have enough hair on my floor to actually make another dog. And if you think that is bad you should see the back seat of my car. I think there is a collie growing back there.

So I took Sterling to the groomers. I am firm believer that people over 75 should not drive. Then they aggravate you and then stick this wrinkled old sausage finger out the window and I'm suppose to take that seriously. I used to think New Yorkers were the worst drivers in the world. I take that back. Ohio, Michigan, and Canadians are the worst. Did you ever want to take them out of the car and run them over. I hear in South Carolina it's legal as long as you leave the body on the side of the road so it can be picked up properly. I used to tell my kids that and they would behave all the way from NJ to FL. Oh the things kids will believe.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

What a day

Being bipolar I am having a manic episode for the last few days. The manic episodes last usually about 2 weeks and then I spiral down. The medications I am on seem to be keep this manic episode manageable. It is so funny when I am manic. My mouth doesn't stop. I mean I even  talk to my dogs and cat and even my lizard Billie Joe. When  I am manic life couldn't be better. Everything is wonderful and I am full of energy. I don't sleep but everything is wonderful.

I have my best ideas when I am manic. But at least this will help me do more packing then I have been doing. I even feel better physically when I am manic. I wish I could feel like this all the time. But when I crash I crash big time.

Unfortunately my daughter inherited this condition from me. I think my mother had it too. Being manic is fun it's the crash afterwards that's a bitch and so am I. Well right now I am  feeling great. I talked to a friend of mine for almost 2 hours on the phone today because my mouth never stops. LOL

If you think I am rambling here, imagine listening to me talking. You'd probably like to crazy glue my lips together. You probably would like to glue my fingers to the keyboard right now too. Well I will shut up for now. By the way my 4 y/o granddaughter called me again today and her other grandmother had no idea that Bri'onna new how to use the phone. She got a good laugh out of that. God I love her she is soooo smart. Well I will write more later undoubtedly. Have a good evening and blessed be. 

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

I have to share

I talked to my daughter earlier and she was telling me a friend of her's is going to give her a baby shower. My 4 year old granddaughter Bri'onna said no the baby has to have a baby bath because she doesn't like showers. Needless to say I think I snorted on that one. I had tears running down my face. The things that come out of her mouth, she is just like her mother Kelly always said exactly what she was thinking too. They both are missing that filter between the brain and the mouth. Kids say the damnedest things. 

Bri is very smart. She has been able to use a camera since she was 2 and by 3 she was able to play video games and turn on a computer and use a mouse. I told Kelly she better make sure Bri doesn't learn of plutonium as she may end up with a nuclear weapon in her living room one day.

Oh, and by the way I am asking everyone I know if they are wearing hats so that their brains don't freeze. Believe me that got quite a few chuckles from family and friends. So make sure you have yours on hate to see your brain freeze and you end up in a coma.

You've have to read this to believe it

My cousin has been very sick. He wasn't feeling well and his brother, Kenny, took him to the hospital. Well within a couple of hours Bobby was in a coma. This was at least a month ago. They doctors have not been  able to figure out what happened and even with him coming out of the coma now they still have no idea what made him go into one.

My Aunt J who lives in the Florida Keys says she knows exactly what happened. She said Bobby's hair is thinning on the top and because Bobby lives in New Jersey and the weather gets very cold there, and Bobby never wears a hat she thinks his brain froze. My aunt is 86 years old and truly believes this could happen. She says all people who live where it gets cold are always sick because cold air makes you sick.

This includes air conditioning and fans. That's why I have rheumatoid arthritis and asthma because here in Florida I use my ceiling fans. I have to admit I laughed my ass off. I tried to talk to her without laughing after that but it was as hard as a vampire refusing blood. LOL

Well I think my Kindle is getting lonely so I guess I should go spend some time with it. It is brand new so it will get lonely quickly. I have a brand new one because my dog, Sterling, broke my other one. Thank God I could transfer all of my purchases to the new one. I would have died as I have about 35 books on there now. Especially the Twilight books that I have not read yet. I have only seen the movies except the last book.

So I am  going to sit under my fan now and hope my brain doesn't freeze. LOL

Monday, May 9, 2011

O Dark Thirty

Here it is 2:30 am. I feel tired but my eyes don't seem to want to close. I fell asleep on the sofa and when I woke up I couldn't go back to sleep. I am sitting here yawning but eyes are wide open. Don't you just hate not being able to go to sleep? Then you make up all these excuses for not being able to sleep. "Oh, I'm too hot" "Oh I'm too cold "The dog is snoring too loud" <my favorite.

And TV, my God TV during the night is the most God awful thing I have ever seen. One more 30 minute commercial and I'm going to throw my TV through the window. So I will go try this one more time and see if I can get my dog really angry at me for moving around to much in bed. Wish I was a dog I could sleep anywhere any time.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

5.8.11 Mother's Day

Well guess I will take myself out to dinner. Nothing fancy just a diner. I figure I deserve it. Seeing as my dogs can't go in the restaurant and my kids are too far away I'll just take myself out to dinner. I also got 2 shirts for Mother's day of course I bought them for me. I pretended they were from the dogs and the cat. Isn't that sweet of them.

Well that has been the excitement of my day. My son called me and I am sure my daughter is working  so I will hear from her later. If I go to the diner I can read while I wait for my dinner to come. I'm reading Twilight. I saw the movies but never read the books so I will be a little bass ackwards.

Well of to dinner someone has to feed me.


Woke up this morning feeling kind of blah. It's Mother's Day and I miss my mom so much. We had so much fun together. Sometimes we would get a case of the giggles and wouldn't be able to stop. We would go shopping every weekend and out to breakfast and dinner on Saturday and Sunday. Not all was smooth sailing, my mom had problems of her own. If I had to guess now I would have to say she was bipolar as I inherited that from her. She also was a victim of child abuse.

Don't get me wrong she never raised a hand to me. But her mood swings could be hard to deal with. But I accepted her the way she was. I loved her so much. I know her dog Sterling still misses her after 2 and 1/2 years. Amazing how a dog can remember.

If I could remind people of one thing it would be to appreciate your moms. You never know how long you will have them. Remember also that moms are human, they have good and bad days. But you should never hold the bad days against them because even on their bad days they love you with all their hearts.

Have to go get dressed and do some more packing today. I hate packing but this move will put me closer to my children. I want to be a mother that is loved as much as my mother was.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Today 5.7.11

I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Cheryl B. I have rheumatoid arthritis (RA) and I am bipolar. Some days my posts will be up and happy other days they could be down and depressing, but they will always be honest. I am an animal lover I have 2 dogs, a Siberian Husky and an Aussie Shepherd. I have a kitty named Dallas and a leopard Gecko named Billie Joe (yes after the lead singer of Green Day). I also have an aquarium that I cannot keep the algae out of.

Some days my RA isn't so bad other days I am in severe pain. I also have fibromyalgia which is no picnic in itself. I applied for disablity 2 and 1/2 years ago I'm still waiting. I was denied three times so we are appealing again. Meanwhile I have no income to speak of. But I am doing the best I can do. I will be moving to VA from Tampa, FL.

I have no family here in  FL and am looking forward to moving closer to my daughter and granddaughter and my soon to be 2 grandchild. My son lives in NJ so I will not be far away from him or my cousins. I found the cutest condo and can't wait to move.

I am also a huge hockey fan. I am a Lightning fan and a Rangers Fan. I love baseball Tampa Bay Rays and Yankees. I also watch football as long as my Steelers are playing. I love sports and used to play them when I was younger. Unfortunately age has crept up on me and I am now 47. It's not a good age for sports plus I don't have the health to play. I always was on skates I couldn't have imagined life without my roller skates on.

My daughter's name is Kelly my granddaughter is Bri'onna and my son is Craig. What wonderful kids they have grown up to be. I am probably boring you with my introduction,  but I thought you might like to know who is doing all this writing. If you have any questions you want to ask me feel free. I'll do my best to answer them. I will post more as my life keeps moving every day. Blessed be.